At The Core of Us:  The Ultimate Path to Demise:  Look at the Sky
Stephen Sandoval, NYC
March 29, 2006

At the core of us, I could have predicted our events to come.
We didn't share any common interests and barely the physical,
In short, we weren't friends and the tantalization of fleshly desire was the only thing there.

At the core of us, I longed for us to be friends, to be connected.
I wished and I prayed that I could learn how to make you care for me more.
There are often no bonus points for trying very hard to make it work with someone.

During us, I learned something about myself that I really care for.
I learned that I have a built in rejection mechanism that prevents me from surrendering,
Surrendering to the self-destructive potential of others' words and actions.

I learned that being the "cool guy" is simply an illusion and not worth striving for.
Engaging in group think and group actions ain't gonna bring you any closer to Nirvana
Unless those ideas and actions promote a healthy sense of good will, self esteem and survival.

So once again I really thank you a helluva lot.
I've had an empowering moment of awe and humility that has saved me from demise.
Everything and everyone happens for a reason or so the philosophy seems to work for me.

Life lesson: Stick your finger in the wind, look at the sky, determine the weather, and steer clear of lightening.